Nine years ago I discovered what FOREVER meant. It’s a time
outside what we have ever known a kind of everyday that stretches without
boundaries. We never really get to wrap your head around the idea of it not
until something as incomprehensible comes along. It can take something as
simple as a celebration that we were supposed to have but never did…Nine years
ago Lolo Kulas passed away – a day before Auntie Del’s birthday. We were all
surprise and shocked. We all never expected it. To think we were just recovering
from Papa’s death (46 days earlier)
Every year our heart breaks all over again because another
year has gone without Lolo. Every day is another day to find another thing
that’s not the same because he’s no longer with us. Although it doesn’t get
easier, we find different ways to deal with it. It also brought us closer to
one another.
In life, we’ve known several kinds of sadness and have used
the different words of grief but nothing can aptly describe the feeling of
losing someone we have loved all our lives. He is the head of the family – he
brought up three wonderful children. Showed unconditional love and affection to
his grandchildren and great grandchildren. As they say, “A WISE FATHER MAKETH GOOD CHILDREN” and we strongly agree with
this. Life wasn’t that easy but he pulled through it. He worked hard and he was
a good provider. He raised successful children and they are forever grateful
for that. We the grandchildren have our own memories with him – memories that
we will cherish for the rest of our lives. He has a great influenced in who we
are now.
As a kid, we sometimes create our own heaven…and for my
heaven, I’ll fill it with all the things and words I never got to say and
express to him. I’ll let it float in the clouds and lolo will see it and he
will realized how much he is loved.
Years from now…we will still be missing him because we live
our lives with the echoes of his love.
Some good things have their end…but if it’s his good things,
it will never really leave. It has way of staying FOREVER!!!
